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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 01:49

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

We were not on the streets..

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

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I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

I waited trembling.

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Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

So whats the point in blame.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

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My family never makes their pension either.

She loved him until the end.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

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Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

And i lived it daily.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

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But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

I said to her

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

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Where the ultimate outsiders.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

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All the time i was locked up.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

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Ive learnt so much.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

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I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

I don,t even have a pension.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

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My mum and dad in the seventies!

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

But it wasn’t much.

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I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

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One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

I was seconnd youngest,

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

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Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

(And it was in our own minds.)

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

I was very sick at this time too.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

She married twice! .

I could never make a relationship work though!

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

And who doesn’t know suffering?

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

What did i know ?

Who then, do I blame.?

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Especially a lifetime of it.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

My life is so biszare .

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

One cannot live in the past .

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

It was going to be , some day.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Was to survive, this bastard.

We all went to grammer schools

This is how, and why children get BPD.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I will be 64.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

As i do to all so called friends.?

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

I couldn’t, believe it.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Why did i forgive my father ?

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

She was in good health!

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

I have no regrets .

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Comes on , in middle age.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

I had hoped to write a book about this .

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

She found it foreign!.

She wouldn,t have been !

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I never cut or harmed myself..

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

He resisted the act ,that day.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Put me off passion for life!!

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

But, we were locked up after school.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

So, i spoilt her more .

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

But ive been too sick for many years..

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Im still living with it.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

I write beautiful poetry .

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

He knew the spot.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Would this be the day?

This is soul school!.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

I was 9 years of age.

I think the readers, may guess!

The only rule us 5 kids had .

When she asked me how she looked .

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

I was scared of men, in general

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.